There has only been one time so far that I have been tempted to talk about my beliefs at work, and I still wonder if I made the right choice at the time. For the most part I think I did. Mia has been a very good friend to me at work. She is easy to talk to, she is one of those women that put people at ease, you rarely feel judged around her. One day while working with her we were alone and I was under a lot of stress from old emotional wounds. I was telling her about where I grew up and the culture shock when I first left. Like always I was watching what I said about religion (I find that in any professional or somewhat formal setting, religion and politics should just be avoided) and out of nowhere Mia asked, "Do you know anything about wicca or witchcraft?" luckily we were both busy working so I don't think she noticed the pause while I collected my thoughts. I told her that I knew what it was, that I had read a book about it because I knew some people who lived out of state that were. That was all I said on the subject, I think it's the only question she has ever asked me that I didn't flat out give the full truth on. She said "Yeah, I have some friends who are too. I just didn't know if you had ever heard of it because of how you were raised." and quickly added, "I don't think there's anything wrong with it, they aren't dangerous or anything."
The rest of the day, and sometimes even now, I wonder what that little conversation was about and what it meant. Of course at first all I could think was, I must have said something, or maybe she saw something (like since I don't wear a pentagram/pentacle, but I carry a coin with one in a small coin-purse). So at first it made me worried. As time went by I have wondered if it's possible that she was reaching out to me; that maybe she is wiccan and was testing the waters to see if I was. I wonder if I missed a chance for someone here that has more experience and knowledge about it. But there is no way to be 100% sure. Odds are, she had just recently talked to those friends she was talking about and it was fresh in her mind. At any rate, I still wonder should I have just flat out told her? Honestly, I don't think she would tell anyone else, especially if I asked her not to. But at this point in my life, there is this line between my life and my work life, work is so hard to find and I can't afford to loose this job, and rumors fly around so fast you never know who knows what. I just don't feel comfortable blurring that line just yet.
I still enjoy talking to her, I still seek her out for advise on other things in my life. It's just one of those things, a lot can be said in so few words, a lot can be said in actions. At that moment I didn't know the best thing to do so I went for the safest, and in the end I think when it doubt that is the best choice.
There has only been one time so far that I have been tempted to talk about my beliefs at work, and I still wonder if I made the right choice at the time. For the most part I think I did. Mia has been a very good friend to me at work. She is easy to talk to, she is one of those women that put people at ease, you rarely feel judged around her. One day while working with her we were alone and I was under a lot of stress from old emotional wounds. I was telling her about where I grew up and the culture shock when I first left. Like always I was watching what I said about religion (I find that in any professional or somewhat formal setting, religion and politics should just be avoided) and out of nowhere Mia asked, "Do you know anything about wicca or witchcraft?" luckily we were both busy working so I don't think she noticed the pause while I collected my thoughts. I told her that I knew what it was, that I had read a book about it because I knew some people who lived out of state that were. That was all I said on the subject, I think it's the only question she has ever asked me that I didn't flat out give the full truth on. She said "Yeah, I have some friends who are too. I just didn't know if you had ever heard of it because of how you were raised." and quickly added, "I don't think there's anything wrong with it, they aren't dangerous or anything." 
The rest of the day, and sometimes even now, I wonder what that little conversation was about and what it meant. Of course at first all I could think was, I must have said something, or maybe she saw something (like since I don't wear a pentagram/pentacle, but I carry a coin with one in a small coin-purse). So at first it made me worried. As time went by I have wondered if it's possible that she was reaching out to me; that maybe she is wiccan and was testing the waters to see if I was. I wonder if I missed a chance for someone here that has more experience and knowledge about it. But there is no way to be 100% sure. Odds are, she had just recently talked to those friends she was talking about and it was fresh in her mind. At any rate, I still wonder should I have just flat out told her? Honestly, I don't think she would tell anyone else, especially if I asked her not to. But at this point in my life, there is this line between my life and my work life, work is so hard to find and I can't afford to loose this job, and rumors fly around so fast you never know who knows what. I just don't feel comfortable blurring that line just yet.
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